The all-night
convenience store's empty and
no one
is behind the counter.
You open
and shut the glass door
a few times
causing a bell to go off,
but no one appears.
You only came
to buy a pack of cigarettes,
maybe a copy of yesterday's newspaper—
finally you take one and leave
thirty-five cents in its place.
It is freezing,
but it is a good thing
to step outside again:
you can feel
less alone
in the night,
with lights on
here and there
between the dark buildings
and trees.
Your own among them,
somewhere.
There must be thousands of people
in this city
who are dying to welcome you
into their small bolted rooms,
to sit you down and tell you
what has happened to their lives.
And the night
smells like snow.
Walking home
for a moment
you almost believe
you could start again.
And an intense love
rushes to your heart,
and hope.
It's unendurable, unendurable.